Wow...I wish I had know of this site when I went through these feelings.
The Watchtower had put its thick veil over my eyes and suddenly when its lifted and you read the bible again...its like WHAT THE HELL?!?!?! I was in shock and then I'd get depressed because of what
complete crap the society was and because of the lies it was feeding to people and they just ate it up!!!
I couldn't stand to sit there at meetings..I would get really angry and upset....its was very hard.
I finally said that I wouldn't attend (for example) the Catholic church because of their false teachings...why am
sitting through a meeting listening to false teachings?
Its been 3 years since I"ve been back and it is still hard especially when surrounded by brain-washed family.
This group has helped as well as others....its shows we're not alone AND that there are caring wonderful people who are not "in the truth" and they out shine by far a lot of supposed "brothers & sisters".
I now take comfort in feeling spiritual without being at church/the hall ....reading the bible without the WT's brain washing and finding God's real truth is something I give thanks for everyday.....real truth.
That's the only thing that gets my through the angry times...knowing that I'm in "the know"!